I have a wee bit of a problem here. The thing is i am seeing someone who hasn't quite gotten over his ex girlfriend. He did mention to me that he and her were kind of almost on the verge of getting married but never quite got to that stage cos he lost feelings for her. We have been hanging out a lot in the past few weeks..but till last friday I screwed up. We hung out a lot, spent a lot of time together and I am very sure there was something going there...

It goes like this:

Me: i heard something from a friend of yours that u proposed and u were going to marry ur gf next year

He: who on earth told u that, its not true...

Me: A human being..i can't tell u who

He: Don't patronize me, i want u to tell me who it is

Me: i can't betray my friend

He: Fair enough, in so doing, u know that u are going to pay a price for this

Me:  I cant help it..if u think that way

A day later: ( he) You asked me if we were going anywhere a week ago, well i can tell u now, its hopeless, i don't want to hold u back, its time to move on. You pushed too many of my buttons...and i just dont feel good about it.

Me: Is there any way i can make it up to you?

He said: be my friend thats it.

Is it really hopeless? The thing is, he gives me many confusing signals and he is still as nice to me...is there anything that can be done to rectify the situation? I am at a loss here.

To my friends and family i must say i m very shocked when i received an sms from my colleague that they managed to gain accesss to my blog and they hacked the password that i placed on the blog. Students have been bitching abt it and talking abt my life..well i didnt expect them to hack into that blogspot n that really disheartens me and puts me off to blogging.

My brother says i could prosecute them coz its illegal..anyways i threw away 2 yrs of memories memories that i prob should forget anyways.

I know these kids gave me great heartache throughout the year. I wanted to post their pics on blogger, but i think i have somehow busted the full load. I have a whole list of things to do still for my class...masters...to do the online project..to complete this n tht but yah u are right, i really don't have much to do:( Not that but i have A LOT TO DO.

Here are some lovely pics of my First ever form class that has touched my heart..and made me cry and happy at the same time. Very few people have given me that heart wrenching thought. Is this the profession for me?